anything under the sun

Last Saturday, me and my baby went to Bulacan for a visit to my in-laws. My original plan was to just drop my baby there since they were asking her to have one week vacation with them but as we are traveling our way to Bulacan I was torn between leaving her or not. I never use to be separated with my baby especially at this point of time.

Yesterday, it took me hours to be determined to leave her. I know she'll cry once she notices that I wasn't there anymore. My sister-in-law just brings her to neighbor's house so she will not see my exit. And when I was at the bus I almost want to go back and get her.

I don't want to be selfish with regards to my daughter but I don't want her to be far from me. Today, exactly0 hours since we separate I texted my sister-in-law twice just to check my daughter but there's no response. I wish she's doing fine there and I can fight my urge to go there and get her there.