My LDR
It is very common in these days to have a long distance relationship (LDR). May it be boyfriend/girlfriend or married couple. The most common reason why one party leaves the country is for work or study purposes.
I, myself belong to the community of LDR. My partner left the country last March 2009 to work at Dammam. He will stay there for two years according to his employment contract.
It was not easy for me to adjust when he left. I don't know if it's because he was called too early than we expect or I wasn't use to separate from him since the first day of our relationship.
I remember the last day we are together before he left the country. I was begging for him not to go. I even told him that he can earn the salary offer that was given to him there. I even asked him to stay for the sake of our child but he's very determined to go. No other words can make him changed his mind. I cried to sleep that night. Until now I can't help but cry when I remember our conversation that night.
I don't know if I should be happy cause he is now earning little better than before. I'm not even sure if he's really doing fine there even though we communicate from time to time and he says he's okay though he find the work even harder than what he has here.
Or maybe I feel this way because I'm one of the reasons why he left the country. I know that even he doesn't say anything about money somehow he feels that he's not a good provider. I was earning more than he was when he's here and I know and I can feel that he don't like that way.
After three months of being alone I am trying to be strong for our child. I don't want our child be affected to the things that bother me. I need to be not just a mother to her but also a father. But how can I be strong if my source of strength is not beside me? I know I am being silly cause my partner will still come back to me after he finished his contract but I can't help myself to act this way.
If only I could pull the clocks time I would have done it before but I can't. Now, all I could do is to wait 'till he comes back to us. Spend more time with my daughter and not let me unoccupied so that loneliness will have no space in my mind.
I, myself belong to the community of LDR. My partner left the country last March 2009 to work at Dammam. He will stay there for two years according to his employment contract.
It was not easy for me to adjust when he left. I don't know if it's because he was called too early than we expect or I wasn't use to separate from him since the first day of our relationship.
I remember the last day we are together before he left the country. I was begging for him not to go. I even told him that he can earn the salary offer that was given to him there. I even asked him to stay for the sake of our child but he's very determined to go. No other words can make him changed his mind. I cried to sleep that night. Until now I can't help but cry when I remember our conversation that night.
I don't know if I should be happy cause he is now earning little better than before. I'm not even sure if he's really doing fine there even though we communicate from time to time and he says he's okay though he find the work even harder than what he has here.
Or maybe I feel this way because I'm one of the reasons why he left the country. I know that even he doesn't say anything about money somehow he feels that he's not a good provider. I was earning more than he was when he's here and I know and I can feel that he don't like that way.
After three months of being alone I am trying to be strong for our child. I don't want our child be affected to the things that bother me. I need to be not just a mother to her but also a father. But how can I be strong if my source of strength is not beside me? I know I am being silly cause my partner will still come back to me after he finished his contract but I can't help myself to act this way.
If only I could pull the clocks time I would have done it before but I can't. Now, all I could do is to wait 'till he comes back to us. Spend more time with my daughter and not let me unoccupied so that loneliness will have no space in my mind.
June 1, 2009 at 11:25 PM
hi sis, nag LDR din kmi before ni hubby. just be strong. ngayon mgkakasama n kmi dito sa UAE. isipin mo na lang yung anak nyo. ingat sis.
June 2, 2009 at 6:48 PM
Thanks for that good advise sis!